July 2011
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June 2011
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May 2011
8 posts
Fast Forward
I want to play my life fast forward.
Yes, skip today and the ones in between, to that day when I cannot feel pain anymore.
Everyday, if I can just describe it as a physical pain, has been excruciating and I feel like I am dying in this overwhelming sea of emotions. Sadness, loneliness, anger, fear of losing control, hostility, depression, and maybe a little bit of happiness. I feel all of...
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Ambivalence
I hate being unhappy.
It consumes me, eats me up, makes me ugly, brings out the worst in me. Just like with everyone else. I am unhappy. I wear it all the time. I’ve worn it for years, maybe forever.
I want to be happy.
Really?
I laugh at myself. I was happy, really happy. It’s just that when I am elated, I fear the wheels will turn over and sadness would take me over...
1pm.
1pm.
It just suddenly hits me. Sadness. Grief. Like someone that matters to me died. I wasn’t even thinking about it.
I was busy, preoccupied. I was in a place with lots of people, with a friend, with upbeat music…. The Worm Hole as they call it.
Then i cry.
“I have learned over the years that when one’s mind is made up, this...”
– Rosa Parks, civil rights pioneer
Today was the day I knew I have to stop running.
Today was the day I knew I have to stop running.
May 12th 2011.
I woke up from a four-hour sleep. I remembered I went to Jonathan’s place last night and left there 2am. Jonathan is the new guy I am seeing. Before that, I met with Jaimie and Ray for martinis and pizza to discuss about Joe and the whole bucket of fishes.
Today I met with my ex-boyfriend, Joseph, for breakfast. Joe, is...
I Am An Empty Glass
I am an empty glass. Fill me up.